Saturday, August 22, 2009

Feeling fantastic!

Ok, I'm still feeling very pregnant, but in a fabulous kind of way. Week 10 was a doozy: nausea, nausea, and absolute utter fatigue. But then last Tuesday, on the tail end of week 10, I woke up feeling kind of...normal. Well, as normal as one can feel when she's starting to burst a bit out of her pants. But I mean not as fatigued. And with food--normal again. For the last two months I've been absolutely ravenous for anything carb-ish. Pizza, bread...bread...bread, and gooey, cheesy things. I made myself drink vegetable juice but it was hard. This week...I actually began to crave vegetables again! Leafy salads! This is much more "normal" for me, as I've always been a healthy eater. My brain feels a bit more clear and I have more energy. Second trimester is just around the corner, so hopefully this is really the 'golden age' of pregnancy that all the books tell you about.

I had my first doctor's visit--everything is great. Next week is the CVS. We couldn't schedule it until week 11, but I decided to do it anyway. I want to have some definites (and yes, I'll also be finding out the sex!). Can't wait! Not one for surprises. I figure I'll have enough surprises in the next few years so waiting to know the sex doesn't have to be one of them.

Emotionally, I also feel very good, except for a couple of teary days last week after I told my brothers. It was weird: telling them was harder than I thought it would be. Even though they were both happy for me and supportive (if extremely surprised!), I think I had put a lot of pressure on myself about how they would feel and react. Clearly, this has something to do with my place in the family (I'm the youngest and the only girl). But once I processed that whole thing I am back to feeling very emotionally GOOD. Dare I say even happier, or more content, than before the pregnancy? I used to have frequent, waking moments in the middle of the night, wondering if I would ever have the things I want in my life. I don't have those anymore. Frankly, it's nice to not be worrying about finding a partner at the moment, too! It's like I have permission to put that aside for awhile and thankfully so. I am still committed to finding a partner in my life, but the pressure is SO off now! In some ways, I feel as if it will be easier and more natural for me post-baby (or rather, in a couple years, when I'm ready to date).

The next big reveal is work. I have a big work milestone in September (the culmination of a 2 year project) for which I am the public face--lots of public lectures, even some press interviews...all that. Not sure if I should reveal before the big event, or after? Is it better to wait as long as possible? I think I could actually hide the pregnancy for quite awhile, maybe until 4 months. But not sure why I should do that...what's the point? I guess I would like to avoid weird public outings, like my director introducing me for a lecture by saying, "and here's Jo, who's a pregnant single lady, to tell you more about such and such!" Ok, that sounds a bit irrational as I write it down.

6 comments:

meandbaby said...

So glad you're feeling good! Good luck with the "telling"! I bet it goes great whenever you decide to do it.

Meg said...

I hope the feeling good continues!
The nausea is just no fun.

I'm glad telling your brothers went well!

Good luck with the CVS test

DRMOMOFTWO said...

Glad your outing with your brothers went well! I'm the youngest, too...and I also did my "outing" after the three month mark. Yes, there was extreme surprise, to say the least. My brother was ecstatic for me...my sisters, well, the conversation did not go as well. Regardless, everyone will love that little baby unconditionally.

Also good to hear you're approaching the second trimester. It is SO much easier. With my first, I craved milk. Go figure. Couldn't get enough of it! With my second, ironically, it was pickles.

Good luck with the CVS test. Can't wait to hear all the results!

cmay said...

Yay! I'm glad you are feeling better. My family were mostly supportive, but I found out later that some didn't approve. Bully on them! You gotta do what is right for you, I say! And clearly the peace of mind you are feeling is one big sign that it was and is the right thing.

Demeter said...

When I read this post it sounded like me when I was pregnant, so true that now the pressure to date is OFF. I feel so free now that I have my kids, to find the man who could really be my partner and not have to worry about "the tirant time clock ticking..." Good luck on the CVS test.

Choicemumtobe said...

Hi Jo

Wow. I haven't been blogging for months and months and was so surprised and happy when I checked your blog to read that you're already PREGNANT! How absolutely wonderful!

I started TTC last year and then after a break to finish a degree started again in May. After 3 failed TBs, 2 failed IUIs and finally a chemical pregnancy from my first IVF I've been feeling a bit depleted. But reading your excitement about your pregnancy has reminded me why I'm doing this - so thanks :)

Wishing you the very best for the rest of your pregancy.

Rach